It is not a secret that French actress Brigette Bardot did not want to be a mother. In her memoir titled Initiales B.B, she wrote:"I'm not made to be a mother... I'm not adult enough — I know it's horrible to have to admit that, but I'm not adult enough to take care of a child."She also wrote in her 1990 memoir that she had even tried to get an abortion at the time, but it was illegal in France. In her own words:"I am not a mother, nor do I want to be one... I looked at my flat, slender belly in the mirror like a dear friend upon whom I was about to close a coffin lid."Furthermore, according to Initials B.B., Brigette was so adamant on not being a mother that she even punched her stomach several times in hopes of aborting the baby.However, Brigette Bardot gave birth to her son, Nicolas-Jacques Charrier, in 1960. It is her one and only son with her then-husband, Jacques Charrier. Brigette passed away at the age of 91 in her home in Southern France.More about Brigette Bardot's estranged sonBrigette Bardot gave birth to her son, Nicolas-Jacques Charrier, on January 11, 1960. He is now 65 years old. According to an announcement from The New York Times, Bardot gave birth to her son at home, and he weighed 7 lbs.Brigette and Jacques divorced two years later after they welcomed their son. Nicolas was taken in by his father's family and was primarily raised by his paternal grandparents.In a later interview, Bardot revealed why she did not take in her son at the time. She said:"I didn't bring up Nicolas because I needed support, roots... I couldn't be Nicolas' roots because I was completely uprooted, unbalanced, lost in that crazy world."Brigette Bardot revealed most of what was going on in her life behind the scenes in her 1990 memoir. Before it was published, her then-husband and son tried to censor the book because of its contents. One of the most talked-about parts of the book was when she called her own son the "object of my misfortune."She wrote:"I wanted to free myself — in every sense of the word — I wanted and could not, because I was a prisoner of my too famous name and possessive nature of Jacques, a prisoner of my body, my face, my child."After Initials B.B was released, Brigette was fined up to $40,000 by Jacques and Nicolas.A few years later, her then-husband decided to publish a memoir of his own in response to Bardot's. This is what he had to say about the book, titled My Response to Brigitte Bardot. He told The Telegraph:"By giving my version of the facts, I'm doing her a big favour... In a way, I rehabilitate her. The reality of her love for Nicolas, confirmed by the letters I kept, is much more to her credit than the horrors she wrote."After a while, Brigette Bardot decided to keep her son's name out of her mouth during interviews. According to a source from Le Pointe, she later revealed that she had promised Nicolas not to talk about him anymore to the public.Brigitte Bardot openly admitted that she never wanted to be a mother and struggled with motherhood. Nonetheless, she gave birth to her only son, Nicolas, in 1960. However, he was raised by his father's family after his parents' divorce. Her memoir caused major controversy, and later, she chose to stop speaking about her son publicly.Also read: 5 Brigitte Bardot films to re-watch as the legendary actress passes away